October was a wonderful month for me. God told me it’d be a soft month and it was. He told me that it’d be a month marked by ease and indeed it was.

He said: Adejumobi, October is your month.

I said: yes, it is.

He said: no, apart from it being your birthmonth, it really is your month.

Now, looking back at how full October was, I see what he meant by it being my month. Cheers to October.

October was nothing like June, July and the subsequent months that showed me “shege”. Not only was it full of material blessings, it also came with lots of significant events and rich spiritual experiences like I mentioned in yesterday’s post.

I was walking home from school yesterday and I asked what November would be like.

He said: it’s going to be a month of open doors and new blessings.

I said: okay, this is good.

Then he said: you’d have to give a lot more than normal. That thing called sowing, you’d do a lot of it this month and it’s not going to be easy because it’s to teach you that you don’t only give when you feel like it. Your giving should be based on love, the leading of the Spirit, the needs of others and not your mood.

Then I remember that one time he told me that when he gives me money, he’s not exactly giving it to me to spend on myself. So, not only am I God’s fancy pen, I’m also his USSD code/bank app. Another thing he said yesterday was that: I know you like to give but you won’t like this one. It will stretch you.

Am I bothered or sad about this stretching knowing it means another round of “shege” might just be around the corner? To be honest, no. Romans 8 vs 28 won’t let me. I know. I’m too sure that it’s all for my good. I might whyne in the process but that’s the same way I’d laugh at myself and rejoice my way through it.

Yesterday, I wasn’t very available to respond to messages on WhatsApp so I wanted to type “call me if it’s urgent” on my status. Then it hit me. Me, ask people to call me? Lol. Unbelievable. I’m the kind of person that’d watch my phone ring and send the caller a message afterwards.

I’d go: heyyyyoooo. What’s uppp. I missed your call.

I’ve gone through various phases in this my 22 years on earth. I’ve gone from doing the right thing with the wrong motivation to doing nothing without a motivation and now, I’m here in a better place with a better understanding of who I am in God and why I’m here. So everytime God gives me an instruction I’d rather not take, I remind myself that I didn’t get here by doing the things I like. No matter how you choose to see it, growth doesn’t happen in comfort zones. Even if it’s just to the basement, you’d still have to step out.

I’ve not gotten anywhere yet but from the little I’ve experienced, I can tell you for sure that when Tasha Cobbs said God will break you to position she wasn’t lying. It’s impossible to be in God and not grow. Philippians 1 vs 6 says: being confident of this very thing that he that hath begun a good work in you with perform it till the day of Jesus.

See, God doesn’t have abandoned projects neither does he carry out projects half heartedly. When he’s on your case, he’s actively on it. The moment you surrender yourself to him, that’s it. Lol. Sometimes we sing songs and make commitments we don’t really mean. So when God takes us up on them, we’re shocked.

E.g: oceans by Hilsong — spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters. Wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander. And my faith will be made stronger. In the presence of my savior.

Refiner by Maverick City — I wanna be tried by fire, purified. You take whatever you desire. Lord here’s my life.

Lol, after singing these songs, God then blocks your source of income and everyone suddenly forgets you. Even when you participate in giveaways, they pass you by. You now begin to cry: God why? What did I do wrong?

You didn’t do anything wrong dear. He’s leading you where your trust is without borders. Shebi you want to walk upon the waters? Here you go dear, enjoy.

At this point you think God will save you when you sink once. Leemao. You’ll sink. You’ll sank. Infact, you’ll sunk but you won’t die because of course, he’s not trying to kill you, he’s taking you deeper than your feet will ever wander (just like you asked).

What am I driving at? God doesn’t give himself in pieces. He won’t give half of himself to you. So, if he’s giving you his all, he’s expecting your all too. You don’t take the blessings and shirk the responsibilities. You don’t take the grace and ignore the work. Sometimes it’s soft like there’s a giveaway going on in heaven. Sometimes it’s tough like God has disowned you. Lol. Knowing God as a father means recognizing that he comforts you both with the rod and the staff. God is not Father Christmas or a Sugar Daddy that’s only concerned about your feelings and emotions. God is more concerned about your LIFE. By your life, I mean your destiny, your purpose, your growth. He’s more concerned about making you like him.

And for every lesson God teaches you, there’s an experience to drive it in. The scriptures that have become life to me didn’t become life to me through mere repetition. They became life to me through experiences. God is my Jireh, I’ve seen and lived it. Romans 8 vs 28, I’ve seen and lived it. Psalms 23, I’ve seen and lived it. 2nd Corinthians 5 vs 7, I’ve seen and lived it. The experiences were not sweet but they came with wisdom, knowledge, understanding and lastly, growth. So now, when I say God is good or God will provide or the Lord is my shepherd or I know everything is working for my good, I’m not capping. I’ve seen it. I’ve handled it. I’ve tested it. It has worked.

Does this mean I know all there is to know about the reality of these scriptures? Far from it. In God, there’s no see finish. You can only see as far as your sight goes. All I’ve seen is just all I can see. As I grow, I see, live and experience even more.

I’d end this post is with just one word: stay. Just stay. Stay. Stay. Stay with him. Stay in him. Stay by him. Stay through him. Stay on him. Just stay and never forget Philippians 1 vs 6.