I used to struggle with defining my friendships. By now, you already know I’m big on writing lists and organizing things on paper. So I used to write a list of my friends and you know, measure the friendship and all.

I was literally trying to arrange my friendships in a box. In an uncertain world full of fickle people, I wanted to be sure that my friends would always be my friends. I thought I could keep them forever by always checking up on them or breaking my back and expecting the barest minumum from them (didn’t work. Please don’t do this.)

Enjoy your friendships. If it ends, okay. If it continues, even better. Everyone won’t be in your life forever. So stop overthinking and live in the moment. I grew up lonely so don’t blame me for wanting to swallow my friends and keep them inside my stomach. I also thought that I wasn’t very lucky with friends ‘cause I was always losing them.

It’s either distance interrupts the friendship or life happens or we just even drift apart. Anyhoo, I’ve lost lots of friends and it used to make me (cry) sad. I’m not all that buddy buddy with my siblings so if not friends then who? Now, I understand that humans are different. Hence, no two friendships can be 100% alike. I’d be a dunce to compare the friendship I have with Tare with the friendship I have with Sophie. So I say Joshua is a bad friend ‘cause he doesn’t send me money although he checks up on me everytime.

I’d say know your friends. Understand how they express love and don’t even try to compare one to the other. I no longer trying to keep my friends in a locket. I just enjoy whatever I have with them now that I have it. I move on faster from losing friends too. I don’t keep my other friends at an arm’s length because one friend hurt me. No. I deal with the hurt and still give as much as I can to my friendships. One thing I’ve learned to tell myself is feel the hurt. Deal with it, it won’t kill you and apparently, it hasn’t. I’m still here.

I’d end this with a special shoutout to:

Jemima and PPrecious for being my landladies, my girls, my budbudbuddies and more. I mean, you guys are the next best thing after shawarma.

Pauletta for not caring about me but always checking up on me to be sure I’m not dead.

Vincent for caring about my grades and telling me I’m amazing a million times.

Adeyemi for totally getting me, for being such a fan and for being my guyyyyy.

Adunola for being my sugar mummy and a sweetheart.

Eri for having mad faith in me and the deep talks which I miss.

Fikayo for caring about me in an uncaring manner and for his willingness to always help me.

Stanley for accommodating me and tolerating my disturbances.

Temilola for the ocassional amebo despite the choking nature of faculty of law.

Ife for keeping space for me and helping my school life.

David and Folusho for being the boys I can always brag about even though they’re now part-time ghosts.

PPelumi for the money she’d send to me when she starts working.

Dejare for being my lockdown buddy and for helping me many times.

Rotimi for being a wonderful friend and accountability partner.

Dimeji for being the celebrity friend I can famz on social media.

Shalom for being my only albino friend and an amazing person (don’t argue with me Shalom).

I’m praying for you guys. I’m praying for God to meet you at the point of your needs because he knows and sees it all. I wish you all things beautiful and nice because you deserve it. I wish you peace, the kind that surpasses all understanding and I say amen to all your heart desires.

There are things I see you going through and I don’t say anything about because I feel like whatever I’d say are things you’ve heard a million times. I don’t want to be the friend that has only “sorry” and “omo” to offer when you have problems. I want to provide solutions and be God’s means of showering love on you and I will. So rejoice dears, I gatchuuuuuuuuu.

P.S: uoy evol I (Dju get it? If you don’t then forget.)